Special occasions and events in your life are often depressing once somebody had died. The actual fact that that person isn’t there with you at massive moments will feel extremely strange. It will create even the happiest occasion some what unhappy and therefore the ones in surroundings fails to grasp it as a result of to all what matters is their happiness.
In such situations whatever you do or try to put a fake smile is also because you have to survive in the hypocritical society but still then you hate the clingy type of people who try to stick to you on their random issues and again just thinking about themselves they do not understand what you are going through.
Since past few months I have been going through some of the big moments, one of them was graduation but i did not feel like even highlighting it as I have all but not baba with me so I feel alone and same is the case with the day today.
Eid is not bringing the joy to me, how could I be happy or pretend to be when the heart is not happy.