Category Archives: Writing

I Am Broken

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I m not a depressed person, I am  one  fun loving person I never took tensions not even in final exams nor  after  attempting the  whole  paper  like I did not  know what i  wrote in there, and even then when I used to  return  home i  used  to  say  I  attempted it to the  best assuring all I will be scoring  highest where as within it was  always  sure to  me that I was zero.

I loved living care free not  thinking what  will  happen in future. I  clearly thought what will come  will be  tackled well with my father along. My utmost support, who  believed in me. No doubt  mama believe in me the  same  but still deep inside i  feel broken glass pieces in myself which i can not  communicate with any one. Not even to myself all in return I  have is headache and lots of tears.

Later  as  he passed  to the eternity. Life was so unfair, that was the point I realized how  difficult it is to live. Having a home is  more than  a blessing, yet how to  make it stand  strong is the thing. I  know  i m writing  nonsense but  this  is the only  place I  get  relaxed after writing. I can’t show  my tensed  tears and  breathing to  my mom..

This  blog  is  not  as  social  as I m on  facebook so  nobody knows  what a  heartache  i  go  through thinking  all the time to work  n  work  more. Small  freelance tasks to  take in and being  an  equal  support  to mummy where as not  showing  to  her I  get  equally concerned, i know  baba you  read what i write but my  miss  you  so much.. more than an  hour  of  nonstop  tears and  blocked  nose. Yet staying  firm in front of  people  is  so  hard. I  don’t  say  I  m strong I  say I am a joker.. Heart is pounding hard like it  is  at  the  moment  pumping  in  my  head and I  wont  be  able to  write  more I guess I  m better  after writing a bit but  still my eyes hurt and I  cant communicate  what i  have  inside

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LAME FEELINGS

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One of the very lame feeling of the month is that 10th of any month should not  fall on weekends. Especially for those who are the working people and their  pays are delivered on the 10th and after it if you by chance fall ill that gets more appetizing icing on the cake. Though you  don’t have to do even a little  thing with  it being  sick in your home, formatted on bed with layer of blankets, medicines and tears flowing like fire. Though being a very lame feeling. It is a feeling I  felt and I ever feel better after writing what disturbs..

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The EYELINER Story After Graduation

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So, after clearing up 9th semester happily – it is almost a year about this thing.

I learnt so many things after i was no more in NUML.

The most important to me is this one, stated as

Finally I can apply eyeliner on my eyes myself.

Well this is the most creepiest of things to write about at the moment, 5am at night (As yet i m wide awake and have to take good night sleep soon)

But what I do when the cough is not letting me sleep and my brain is wandering around.

So, i was remembering the time I was never able to apply eyeliner to myself. Each time either a cousin, neighbours,

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classfellow, junior, senior, teachers or even at times any body random in university had to do the honour of applying eyeliner to me.

Where I went through the lovlingly irritating words

  • Yar tumhari ankhy bht choti hy
  • Color hi krna prta hy nzr nhi ata
  • Ankhy na hilao na

As if I did that intentionally :/

Well, I remember while I had an interview travelling through Metro. I asked the lady at metro station who checks you before entrance to apply eyeliner to me..

Well later on even in office I got a friend (water) i call her she used to do that.

But Now finally, I apply the eyeliner on my eyes my self

Yayyyy!

Nothing much it is just an excerpt from my mind at 5am.

 

International Day of the Girl – 11TH October

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As number of days are observed throughout the year, just in order to make them stand out more particular to honor.  Today is International Day of the Girl.

Each year on October 11 girl’s rights around the world is observed while we’ve made a lot of progress, I thought to give it a special feature this week. As all the imagesyou see around is because of the girls.

Girls are the trendsetters of the colourful fashion industry. Cultural diversity has been immensely seen around when beautifully displayed upon a girl, though in whatever age is she?  There are some challenges which almost every girl would have encountered while choosing her line of career.

Whereas if I take it to the toddlers age even before choosing my career path, number of times I  thought that  life would  be much  better IF I WERE A BOY. Yet now I’m pretty content being a girl.

There are many others which outbreak the lives of girls around the world. This is not at all suitable for a girl’s mental health. In short, here’s everything you need to know about International Day of the Girl.

On this day, our foremost obligation is to start an awareness campaign about life of girls, for girls, by the girls till where we have our reach.

 What sort of challenges?

 

This includes everything from admittance to education and healthcare, being forced into child marriages, being blemished by female genital scar,

ornamented like a showpiece and presenting you as a puppet in front of theRishta People’

and equal opportunities as children and young adults too. Girls in all countries continue to experience gender discrimination on a daily basis.

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Through, the day today I wish to see girls progressing up in all fields of life.

 

Social Media, Pain In The Neck !

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download        Day by day as we grow up we started to encounter new things in life. Some were good while others were not and some were made to be used for a little while. Life always taught us that amusement objects are not made to have impact on life relations but while growing up people stopped paying heed to it; so social media became their first priority and relations went on after that, sad!

No doubt, technology is taking over the present day living beings so is social media though number and number of benefits are obtained out of it but still then a I feel it being bound in box if I make technology my ultimate goal. Despite of everything available online I don’t feel satisfaction in reading newspaper or books online. Some stuff only pleases you the way you have been doing since your birth. A few things can be evolved in life but predominantly can’t be altered.

To believe it or not in our society social media is proving to be a great menace not just in youth but in every important matter of life; ranging from friendships to relationships, family disputes or political affairs. Where social media is proving itself best in providing freelance jobs and general knowledge it is  being a great pain in the neck and a point of egoistic assumptions destroying peaceful lives.

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To understand deep thoughts one needs to think deeply by absorbing into the subject and to get deeply absorbed it needs to go through the art of pain and sacrifices. It is not easy for anybody and everybody because it takes the power to love and then break in to pieces and then gathering the broken pieces to keep loving the same subject matter by understanding it deep and deeper..