When you have your birthday round the corner & you can think of every possible stupid thing of life, you end up in self talk!
So, after clearing up 9th semester happily – it is almost a year about this thing.
I learnt so many things after i was no more in NUML.
The most important to me is this one, stated as
Finally I can apply eyeliner on my eyes myself.
Well this is the most creepiest of things to write about at the moment, 5am at night (As yet i m wide awake and have to take good night sleep soon)
But what I do when the cough is not letting me sleep and my brain is wandering around.
So, i was remembering the time I was never able to apply eyeliner to myself. Each time either a cousin, neighbours,
classfellow, junior, senior, teachers or even at times any body random in university had to do the honour of applying eyeliner to me.
Where I went through the lovlingly irritating words
- Yar tumhari ankhy bht choti hy
- Color hi krna prta hy nzr nhi ata
- Ankhy na hilao na
As if I did that intentionally
Well, I remember while I had an interview travelling through Metro. I asked the lady at metro station who checks you before entrance to apply eyeliner to me..
Well later on even in office I got a friend (water) i call her she used to do that.
But Now finally, I apply the eyeliner on my eyes my self
Nothing much it is just an excerpt from my mind at 5am.
“WE DO NOT HAVE A DEMOCRATIC MEDIA, I WROTE THIS PIECE TO ALL NEWSPAPERS YET NO ONE DARED TO PUBLISH. SO I DECIDED TO BRING IT OUT” Fatima Hasan Zaidi
Dream big to achieve big in life, all my 16 years of education circled around this phrase; but nobody told me that I m living in a country where degree, qualification, talent, skills and experience does not matter. It is an insignificant little thing cursed by the reference system.
Where ever I go with my resume with massive experience in my relevant subject, where my publications, skills, experience and my hard work is the only reference I have. I m not entertained by the authorities because either they do not trust in themselves and are afraid to see the resume and hire on what their mind says or they do not have the potential to do so.
All they need is a strong living being to be at the back of the one who wants to do something and they fail to understand that the reference won’t be putting in effort in the work but the person who stand firm with a CV.
I wonder if reputed organizations ever change their policies and optimistically hire the graduates on behalf of what they are and not what their sources are.
Happy Birth Day Baba,
I wish to hear the phone ringing for at least on his birth day; calling from somewhere so i can wish him on his day & listen to his voice.. I though too much about you today, looking for you in the air, sensing your fragrance around. Missing you is nothing new, i thought about you yesterday and the day before that too. I think of you in the silence, even utter your name in order to talk to you, when people hurt i long for you..All i have are the pictures full of life.. Though i long for or fresh pictures at every moment.. Each of my achievement is incomplete without you. I look for you in the sky at the brightest shining start at night.. You have left along number of great people yet no one can replace you because nobody else got the childhood i had. Those vary memories so vividly present in my flash back. It is the memories that keep me strong and head up; in front of every living creature, who even say a lot to me directly on the face because they think i m alone and you are not with me, but they are unaware of our bond..
When i was your i had you as protection over head so nobody had the grit to speak over
Now that i am a grown up i have your emotive shadow always around that keeps the satanic thoughts of the people far away from me baba, yet they are non belivers of love.
It is nothing more than a lovely unbreakable bond. May you be happy wherever you are, may you read what i write for you, may you come feel the pain i suffer on the birth days though mine or yours… Lots of Love, Jia
#Fatima Hasan Zaidi
Day by day as we grow up we started to encounter new things in life. Some were good while others were not and some were made to be used for a little while. Life always taught us that amusement objects are not made to have impact on life relations but while growing up people stopped paying heed to it; so social media became their first priority and relations went on after that, sad!
No doubt, technology is taking over the present day living beings so is social media though number and number of benefits are obtained out of it but still then a I feel it being bound in box if I make technology my ultimate goal. Despite of everything available online I don’t feel satisfaction in reading newspaper or books online. Some stuff only pleases you the way you have been doing since your birth. A few things can be evolved in life but predominantly can’t be altered.
To believe it or not in our society social media is proving to be a great menace not just in youth but in every important matter of life; ranging from friendships to relationships, family disputes or political affairs. Where social media is proving itself best in providing freelance jobs and general knowledge it is being a great pain in the neck and a point of egoistic assumptions destroying peaceful lives.
Copyright © Fatima Hasan Zaidi | Year Posted 2016